Post two equates to... Well, not sure yet, but I'm sure something will manifest itself. Guess I could talk about the new music I'm listening too, which is the new Dropkick Murphys album, but that isn't anything amazing, you can listen to if if you want, but I won't lash you for not. I could talk about my conversations with my great friends, but that's really more just them putting my perspective in check. I guess I will just sort of ramble, much as I do normally.
Anyone ever notice that those who are most adamant to remain "drama free" are those that most often perpetuate? In fact, I don't know a person who isn't a gossip, smack talker, or drama queen, that's ever said, "I don't want any drama!". Ironic? Maybe. I just believe that drama might just be a part of natural human life, everyone is involved in spreading it at some point, whether intentionally or no, and everyone is affected in one way or another at some point, and everyone embraces and rejects it at points. I've experienced this lately, I tend to be one of the more drama free people I know, it's not like me to make mountains out of mole hills, and for me most everything is a mole hill. This last week was definitely an exception however, I was not my laid back self, and I made Mount Everest out of an ant hill! Potentially placing me in a very hard spot with two of my best friends indefinitely, compromising my ability to make ends meat monetarily, and obviously putting a damper on my typically high spirits. But some lessons come harder than others, and some senses are hard to find, and in the worst times for you, and in the times where you put on a less than admirable display of yourself, you can learn a great number of things. I've learned through all of this what I believe it means to be an unconditional friend, I've learned that there is something to be said for someone who is good for the sake of being good. I'm a very forgiving person, the Merrill family has taught me how to take things with a light spirit, and that everyone deserves seconds, thirds, fourths, etc chances, even when that often comes at the expense of your own feelings, and putting down your guard to let yourself be a punching bag at times. Maybe I'm flawed, but if I have to be a doormat for people to feel better, if I need to be one that is taken advantage of, then I'm willing, everyone needs a place to wipe their feet after all. I realize that for the most part there should be a point where you don't take the punches from people, where you throw some back, but I always believe that if someone feels like they need to take out whatever it is they're dealing with on you, then they're going through something that you probably do not understand fully, whether it be not understanding how it affects them, or the situation itself. It's much like my philosophy on giving homeless people money; if somebody asks you for your money, they obviously feel like they need it more than you do, and even if 99 out of 100 people use that money to buy something you disapprove of, you've helped at least one person, and you've helped others in the way they feel best suits them, and for being generous just for the sake of being generous, you've elevated yourself into a position where most people wish they could aspire to, but are too bitter, angry, or afraid to do so.
Anyways, that's my poorly written views on... Well whatever that was about. Happy reading all!