You thought I'd miss a day!?!?! Me!?!?! HA! Yeah right! You know what it was? I was trying to psych you out, make you believe I'd forgotten, but I hadn't and I didn't and I won't! Just wanted to say hey to the everyone who reads my blog, which right now is either one, or no one. Easy to say, I'm on a role! This one is short, just saying hi and love you all for checkin in on me.
Steven Out!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Downer much?
Upon reflection and reading of my previous entries I came to the realization that I have been quite a downer lately! How anyone reads that stuff without getting depressed themselves is beyond me! I mean, yes, my life is going through quite the trying time, and yes, money is tight as usual, but what do I have to be so down about? I have great health, in my opinion I'm starting to resemble Garrard Butler circa 300 when I take my shirt off (HAHAHAHAHAHA! Not really but I can pretend), I'm close with my family, I'm close with one of my oldest and bestest friends who also coincidentally shares my interest, and I have a great amount of opportunity presenting itself to me!
How often do we let the little things break us down? Doesn't it feel like we're often just taking advantage of the good things in our lives, by ignoring them and focussing on the negative? What I don't understand is why with so much to be up beat and happy about, we focus on what's wrong, when it's typically the minority? What I do know is that I can work hard to focus on the good now, I have an opportunity to get back in touch with my family and everything they have going on, I have an opportunity to have an amazing summer even if I only end up becoming a better and closer friend to one of the more amazing people I know, and I have an opportunity to advance my career and skill set. Don't focus on what's bad, there is very little to be gained from self-deprication and a bad mood, but much to be gained by a positive outlook. I hope everyone is doing well, and I hope you all take the time to enjoy your life, busy, and hectic though it may be. Remember, there's always good in even the worst of situations.
Steven OUT!
How often do we let the little things break us down? Doesn't it feel like we're often just taking advantage of the good things in our lives, by ignoring them and focussing on the negative? What I don't understand is why with so much to be up beat and happy about, we focus on what's wrong, when it's typically the minority? What I do know is that I can work hard to focus on the good now, I have an opportunity to get back in touch with my family and everything they have going on, I have an opportunity to have an amazing summer even if I only end up becoming a better and closer friend to one of the more amazing people I know, and I have an opportunity to advance my career and skill set. Don't focus on what's bad, there is very little to be gained from self-deprication and a bad mood, but much to be gained by a positive outlook. I hope everyone is doing well, and I hope you all take the time to enjoy your life, busy, and hectic though it may be. Remember, there's always good in even the worst of situations.
Steven OUT!
Monday, March 28, 2011
The nothing of nothingness.
Ever been alone? Almost completely? Ever had the one you planned on spending forever with and your best friend leave you within a month? Ever had to come to the realization that you're virtually alone when it comes to people that you see on a day to day basis, that would have any concept on the inner workings of your heart? Ever had that situation where there's no one around for you to gossip with, for you to vent to, that listens to your story and shares theirs with you? I do. In fact, I'm going through it right now, and I'm coming to the realization that life is hard to live alone. It's lonely, and the emptiness of being alone is dark, and bleak. I have a couple great friends, but they have their lives, and the amount of time I get to see them is rare if ever. The emptiness and loneliness of being 100% alone is at times, seemingly, insurmountable. What a crossroads to be in, where I once spent all my time with someone, while not the best times, was still someone that I was able to spend time with; what I wouldn't give to have that one person to spend all my time with and share everything with. You don't realize what the gap between 0 and 1 really is, until you've had to deal with it. One person, to love, give me purpose, let me take care of them, let me make them happy, and have them know I'm happy simply because they're part of my life.
Steven out
Steven out
The Grind!
Anyone who's ever worked on meeting a date for software knows the kind of grind it takes to get the software ready for launch. One of the more glorified jobs for nerds everywhere is video game development and programming, what's not know is the amount of work and time it actually takes to develope a video game to the point it can be released, and how little you actually get to just "play games". 80 hours plus a week, time taken from your family, code for the game, code for the tools, code for the networking, infrastructure, network engineering, concept design, engine building, etc. Hundreds of thousands, to quite literally, millions of functions have to be performed in order to produce a product that can be utilized without problem. Typically, however, video games require very little support after their initial launch (although that is becoming less and less true with video games becoming more and more internet driven.), the true grind is for those who not only develope the software they put out, but do daily support as well. Since the beginning of the year, my company has been working dilligently on producing the latest version of our software, and already I've averaged almost 60 hours a week. With Verion 10 (WOO HOO!!!) finally out for client distribution, the grind is expected to be more like 80 hours a week. My grind is only just beginning, and the outlook is seriously daunting! Somehow my urge to work more than I sleep or enjoy leisure time combined has just never really been there. I firmly believe the grind is going to kill me. If nobody sees a new post from me after three weeks, just start planning my wake.
Steven OUT!
Steven OUT!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Torn?
Everyone is presented with choices every day, whether to wear this or that, eat breakfast, go to work, etc. The typical technique to determine what one would like to do is typically a cost/return analysis, I hate going to work, but the payoff is better than what I sacrifice. It doesn't take too much time typically, we do it within a matter of mili-seconds usually. How often does it take you hours or days to decide you're going to get in your car and grab a bite to eat? Rarely I'd assume, but I suppose you never know. What happens, however, when you're faced with a more perplexing question that, grape or strawberry jam? What about potentially life changing questions? And what if this question has had a cost/return analysis applied to it a hundred times, and you still have a hard time coming to a definitive conclusion? What if you come to the conclusion that one way might make you exponentially more happy, but it's a lot less likely to go according to plan? I guess I'm at a crossroads where I can sympathize with this sort of situation, and making or committing to a plan is beyond difficult. It makes you want to just remain stagnant, but what would that do? Leave me in the same broken position I'm in right now? Why isn't there a life track? You know, like the little kids' Go Karts at the amusement park, with the track that is impossible to divert from? I wish I'd been set up with one of those for life, I wish I'd be thrown on one course and told I didn't have a choice but follow it. Two ways to happiness following a potentially troubling time, but how to determine which one has the bigger pay off, or is more likely to come to fruition, or is permanent happiness. Quite the qualm I have spinning inside me, it has my stomach in knots and my brain cloudy. I suppose getting through the now is all I can focus on, and everything else will come in turn.
Steven OUT!
Steven OUT!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Best Buy I'm going to punch you so hard!
A few weeks ago, my dream phone took a dive down three stories worth of stairs, and despite a protective case, and rubber insulator to ease impact, my screen was not match for the force. Luckily, I had the foresight to purchase Best Buy's AMAZING Black Tie Protection Plan! Or so I thought... Turns out, I did buy the plan, it just wasn't so amazing! I was told my phone would need to be sent away, and inspected/repaired. Fine, I can live with that, however, when I inquired about a temporary phone they told me, "You have to pay a $150 deposit". I get that I'd get the money back, but guess what! I don't even have $150 in my account for you to hold. So, I have to go to my AMAZING best buddy Seth and grab an iPhone he had lying around (I know, my friends are great, who just happens to have an extra iPhone laying around? My buddies!) and transfer my SIM card. So, while I was there they told me it'd be three days until my phone was back, unbelievable I know, but they said it, not me. In three days I ventured back to Best Buy, eagerly awaiting the return of my long time friend and most anticipated reunion! I walk to the Geek Squad counter, where I am promptly met with a line that begins to intrude on the appliances section, where I wait over an hour to get to the counter! I had waited patiently, and the very cordial desk attendant was thus forced to meet my patience with the disappointing news that my phone had not reaching the store yet. I was moderately distraught, irate, and in fact saddened, but I was not necessarily shocked, I simply asked the man younger than I, "How long do you think it will be?". His reply had me optimistic, "Within the next couple days, in fact I will call you personally when it is received!". Not pointing out the fact that calling me would be impossible since they had my phone if I had not had such a great friend to lend me his phone, I left with a sense of calm and relieve that my phone would be in my possession shortly. I have called Best Buy everyday for the last three weeks, waiting, fuming, and complaining the time away, and it has still not arrived. I got the phone not for the price, but for the functionality, I enjoy the Android OS, the processor and RAM were all what I wanted, but the price is getting to me the most. A $600 phone, with an additional $200 for the protection plan, and I am out for over three weeks. I always tell my team, under-promise, and over deliver, when you say three days for a resolution, make sure that's the longer end of the spectrum, and deliver a result in 2 days. If you promise 2 days, and deliver in a month, your customer is more upset than if you'd have originally promised a month. Best Buy, for not delivering on time, for constantly wasting my time, and letting me down, I am going to punch you so hard!!! (AND you over charge for any sort of cables, SATA, HDMI, anything! i hated you for that already)
Steven O-U-T-K-A-S-T!
Steven O-U-T-K-A-S-T!
Friday, March 25, 2011
The Audacity of Huge!
Simian Mobile Disco does an amazing song called "Audacity of Huge", and if you've ever been ready to clear a 20 foot kicker, take a 15 foot cliff drop, or just need something to pump you up in general, this is a good one. Fairly trans, disco, electronica but not too hard or guitar reliant for those times when you're not really feeling the mainstream. Anyways, this post wasn't specifically about the song, but a preface to the rest of the post was in order.
Ever notice how we tend to find what works? We'll buy the same brand of underwear, soda, car because they worked for us once, our taste buds, comfort, etc. were stimulated by whatever we purchased. We choose a job type like technology, services, sports, construction because we got into it at one point or another and decided it worked for us. Our relationships even have a tendency to do this, we mingle with certain people, we find what works for them, and we stay in it and in the way that we've found works for us. I've decided something after four years in a relationship where I constantly surpressed my voice, held in feelings, kept communication to a minimum because it was easier, and lied because I didn't want confrontation; I've decided that with my relationships I want that audacity to go huge! To me, this Audacity of Huge song, meant it was time to go big, it was time to have the audacity to go as big as I wanted. Well, now I'm ready to have the "Audacity of Huge" when it comes to my relationships, I'm going to be more open with people, let them know my feelings and not harbor resent. If I think you're a pain in the butt, I want to let it know, because it's not fair to keep it from you, and if I'm madly in love with you, I want to let you know that too rather than chopping myself off at mid-leg. I don't know why people do this to begin with, I guess they're afraid of the immediate let down of fighting with a partner, being rejected, losing their comfortable spot, but in the end doesn't it make things better? Wouldn't you rather share with your friends and loved ones, and have the fleeting moment where the result doesn't quite match, over the big catastrophe that will ensue later? Or begin building your relationship with your partner as soon as possible, rather than drag it out so long that when you finally muster up the courage, they've moved on? I would! I will! Hopefully you will too!
Steven Out!
Ever notice how we tend to find what works? We'll buy the same brand of underwear, soda, car because they worked for us once, our taste buds, comfort, etc. were stimulated by whatever we purchased. We choose a job type like technology, services, sports, construction because we got into it at one point or another and decided it worked for us. Our relationships even have a tendency to do this, we mingle with certain people, we find what works for them, and we stay in it and in the way that we've found works for us. I've decided something after four years in a relationship where I constantly surpressed my voice, held in feelings, kept communication to a minimum because it was easier, and lied because I didn't want confrontation; I've decided that with my relationships I want that audacity to go huge! To me, this Audacity of Huge song, meant it was time to go big, it was time to have the audacity to go as big as I wanted. Well, now I'm ready to have the "Audacity of Huge" when it comes to my relationships, I'm going to be more open with people, let them know my feelings and not harbor resent. If I think you're a pain in the butt, I want to let it know, because it's not fair to keep it from you, and if I'm madly in love with you, I want to let you know that too rather than chopping myself off at mid-leg. I don't know why people do this to begin with, I guess they're afraid of the immediate let down of fighting with a partner, being rejected, losing their comfortable spot, but in the end doesn't it make things better? Wouldn't you rather share with your friends and loved ones, and have the fleeting moment where the result doesn't quite match, over the big catastrophe that will ensue later? Or begin building your relationship with your partner as soon as possible, rather than drag it out so long that when you finally muster up the courage, they've moved on? I would! I will! Hopefully you will too!
Steven Out!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Work and work... COME ON!!!
So my post yesterday was a little bit shorter than I would have liked, and much more somber. Well, glad I'm done with that, not that the issue is resolved, but I am done with the somber demeanor. I mean, I can only stay down so long, at some point it's important to take what you're given and make the most of it.
Work today has been productive, for whatever reason (could be the extra half hour of sleep I took when I slept until 8:30), I felt extraordinarily motivated. My motivation was primarily due to my want to prove the moronic lady who called my at eleven o'clock at night wrong. Insisting that she had done EVERYTHING our documentation stated was required for installing a new workstation with our software, she was still having problems. I knew precisely what she'd done wrong, and I told her, but she continued to insist I was incorrect. Woke up, bolted into work, and within thirty seconds of arriving I called this thorn in my side of a woman! Needless to say, I was right, she was wrong, and it was not a difficult fix. I guess the most frustrating aspect of that situation was she called me asking for my expertise, and my help, she deferred to me, and still refused to accept the information I was giving her. Why ask if you're not willing to receive? Its been a work and work sort of day, as soon as one item is completed, another is waiting for me to begin. Luckily I still have that productive mentality, but if it starts to fade I may need to be resuscitated!
Hope everyone is having a great day!
Steven Out!
Work today has been productive, for whatever reason (could be the extra half hour of sleep I took when I slept until 8:30), I felt extraordinarily motivated. My motivation was primarily due to my want to prove the moronic lady who called my at eleven o'clock at night wrong. Insisting that she had done EVERYTHING our documentation stated was required for installing a new workstation with our software, she was still having problems. I knew precisely what she'd done wrong, and I told her, but she continued to insist I was incorrect. Woke up, bolted into work, and within thirty seconds of arriving I called this thorn in my side of a woman! Needless to say, I was right, she was wrong, and it was not a difficult fix. I guess the most frustrating aspect of that situation was she called me asking for my expertise, and my help, she deferred to me, and still refused to accept the information I was giving her. Why ask if you're not willing to receive? Its been a work and work sort of day, as soon as one item is completed, another is waiting for me to begin. Luckily I still have that productive mentality, but if it starts to fade I may need to be resuscitated!
Hope everyone is having a great day!
Steven Out!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Endurance!
Do I have the endurance? I don't know. The lease is up in 3 months, but with my roommate jumping ship how do I get through that? I don't know. Seems to be an answer I'm coming up with a lot. Why do the most complicated questions inevitably end in "I don't know"? I don't know. I need a get rich quick scheme... What's the reverse of my get poor quick scheme?
Steven Out! (for now)
Steven Out! (for now)
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
The music is in overload!
Anyone who has had St Patty's Day around me has come to know my love for Irish Folk and Irish Punk, and of course this year was not an exception. March 1 came, and aside from basketball, and a friend, Irish music was all that was on my mind! Of course, because my addiction was at its peak, I just had to find a way to fuel it, and the gasoline came in form of Dropkick Murphys! Love them, and apparently they love me around St. Patty's Day, because they released their new album for me to listen to virtually every spare second of every day!
There is not just one song right now from the album that has me hooked, I seriously love them all, but considering my emotional state; Peg O' My Heart is not horrible and keeps me entertained in fantasy!
Peg o' my heart
I'll love you don't let us part
I love you
I always knew it would be you
Peg o' my heart
Since I heard your lilting laughter
It's your Irish heart I'm after
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
Oh Your glances make my heart say
How's chances come be my own
Come make your home in my heart
Peg o' my heart
I'll love you we'll never part
I love you
I always knew it would be you
Peg o' my heart
Since I heard your lilting laughter
It's your Irish heart I'm after
It's your Irish heart I'm after
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
I'll love you don't let us part
I love you
I always knew it would be you
Peg o' my heart
Since I heard your lilting laughter
It's your Irish heart I'm after
It's your Irish heart I'm after
Peg o' my heart
(X2)
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
Anyways, if you hate Irish music, sorry, and if you hate Dropkick Murphys, sorry again, but since I have one follower who reads this, I am not too embarrassed to post my obsessions right now!
Steven Out!
There is not just one song right now from the album that has me hooked, I seriously love them all, but considering my emotional state; Peg O' My Heart is not horrible and keeps me entertained in fantasy!
Peg o' my heart
I'll love you don't let us part
I love you
I always knew it would be you
Peg o' my heart
Since I heard your lilting laughter
It's your Irish heart I'm after
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
Oh Your glances make my heart say
How's chances come be my own
Come make your home in my heart
Peg o' my heart
I'll love you we'll never part
I love you
I always knew it would be you
Peg o' my heart
Since I heard your lilting laughter
It's your Irish heart I'm after
It's your Irish heart I'm after
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
I'll love you don't let us part
I love you
I always knew it would be you
Peg o' my heart
Since I heard your lilting laughter
It's your Irish heart I'm after
It's your Irish heart I'm after
Peg o' my heart
(X2)
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
Peg o' my heart
Anyways, if you hate Irish music, sorry, and if you hate Dropkick Murphys, sorry again, but since I have one follower who reads this, I am not too embarrassed to post my obsessions right now!
Steven Out!
The whites are gray!
Ever notice no matter if you just wash your whites with whites, and use bleach, inevitably they still end up gray! I haven't quite figured out how to bypass this conundrum, and it is truly one of the most irritating things I deal with! Honestly, I can keep the same colored shirts for years, but white shirts, replace after 6 months or you have an ugly looking gray shirt!
Ever notice how that's kind of the same way with relationships? Granted, I'm not saying there aren't "white" relationships, but typically the lifecycle of a friendly relationship seems to go: Meet, hit it off, share common ground, become closer, share all your time together, get annoyed, share less time together, focus on differences, and bam, you're in Grayville! Why is that? Why do so many of us either allow ourselves to get close to those that are so different that when those differences manifest themselves it's a relationship ender, or allow ourselves to find petty differences that "gray" our otherwise "white" relationship? I understand that sometimes people have discrepancies, and different ways of accomplishing goals or ambitions, but for the most part, in a relationship your goals and ambitions tend to be the same, so why allow the means to become a conflict? Why allow the way the other half would like to achieve the same goals become such a qualm that it diminishes the quality of the relationship? I guess my goal and hopefully I'm able to persuade others to share, is to focus on the results, what do you want to accomplish in your relationship? What do you want to get out of your partner to be happy? Differences in the result maybe be frustrating trials to overcome at times, but if you can evaluate from an objective standpoint, looking at the end and going in reverse, if both ways leave you happy, why not conceed your way? Why not give a little, to gain a lot? Don't let the relationships go gray when it's not necessary!
Steven out!
Ever notice how that's kind of the same way with relationships? Granted, I'm not saying there aren't "white" relationships, but typically the lifecycle of a friendly relationship seems to go: Meet, hit it off, share common ground, become closer, share all your time together, get annoyed, share less time together, focus on differences, and bam, you're in Grayville! Why is that? Why do so many of us either allow ourselves to get close to those that are so different that when those differences manifest themselves it's a relationship ender, or allow ourselves to find petty differences that "gray" our otherwise "white" relationship? I understand that sometimes people have discrepancies, and different ways of accomplishing goals or ambitions, but for the most part, in a relationship your goals and ambitions tend to be the same, so why allow the means to become a conflict? Why allow the way the other half would like to achieve the same goals become such a qualm that it diminishes the quality of the relationship? I guess my goal and hopefully I'm able to persuade others to share, is to focus on the results, what do you want to accomplish in your relationship? What do you want to get out of your partner to be happy? Differences in the result maybe be frustrating trials to overcome at times, but if you can evaluate from an objective standpoint, looking at the end and going in reverse, if both ways leave you happy, why not conceed your way? Why not give a little, to gain a lot? Don't let the relationships go gray when it's not necessary!
Steven out!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Post two...
Post two equates to... Well, not sure yet, but I'm sure something will manifest itself. Guess I could talk about the new music I'm listening too, which is the new Dropkick Murphys album, but that isn't anything amazing, you can listen to if if you want, but I won't lash you for not. I could talk about my conversations with my great friends, but that's really more just them putting my perspective in check. I guess I will just sort of ramble, much as I do normally.
Anyone ever notice that those who are most adamant to remain "drama free" are those that most often perpetuate? In fact, I don't know a person who isn't a gossip, smack talker, or drama queen, that's ever said, "I don't want any drama!". Ironic? Maybe. I just believe that drama might just be a part of natural human life, everyone is involved in spreading it at some point, whether intentionally or no, and everyone is affected in one way or another at some point, and everyone embraces and rejects it at points. I've experienced this lately, I tend to be one of the more drama free people I know, it's not like me to make mountains out of mole hills, and for me most everything is a mole hill. This last week was definitely an exception however, I was not my laid back self, and I made Mount Everest out of an ant hill! Potentially placing me in a very hard spot with two of my best friends indefinitely, compromising my ability to make ends meat monetarily, and obviously putting a damper on my typically high spirits. But some lessons come harder than others, and some senses are hard to find, and in the worst times for you, and in the times where you put on a less than admirable display of yourself, you can learn a great number of things. I've learned through all of this what I believe it means to be an unconditional friend, I've learned that there is something to be said for someone who is good for the sake of being good. I'm a very forgiving person, the Merrill family has taught me how to take things with a light spirit, and that everyone deserves seconds, thirds, fourths, etc chances, even when that often comes at the expense of your own feelings, and putting down your guard to let yourself be a punching bag at times. Maybe I'm flawed, but if I have to be a doormat for people to feel better, if I need to be one that is taken advantage of, then I'm willing, everyone needs a place to wipe their feet after all. I realize that for the most part there should be a point where you don't take the punches from people, where you throw some back, but I always believe that if someone feels like they need to take out whatever it is they're dealing with on you, then they're going through something that you probably do not understand fully, whether it be not understanding how it affects them, or the situation itself. It's much like my philosophy on giving homeless people money; if somebody asks you for your money, they obviously feel like they need it more than you do, and even if 99 out of 100 people use that money to buy something you disapprove of, you've helped at least one person, and you've helped others in the way they feel best suits them, and for being generous just for the sake of being generous, you've elevated yourself into a position where most people wish they could aspire to, but are too bitter, angry, or afraid to do so.
Anyways, that's my poorly written views on... Well whatever that was about. Happy reading all!
Steven out!
Anyone ever notice that those who are most adamant to remain "drama free" are those that most often perpetuate? In fact, I don't know a person who isn't a gossip, smack talker, or drama queen, that's ever said, "I don't want any drama!". Ironic? Maybe. I just believe that drama might just be a part of natural human life, everyone is involved in spreading it at some point, whether intentionally or no, and everyone is affected in one way or another at some point, and everyone embraces and rejects it at points. I've experienced this lately, I tend to be one of the more drama free people I know, it's not like me to make mountains out of mole hills, and for me most everything is a mole hill. This last week was definitely an exception however, I was not my laid back self, and I made Mount Everest out of an ant hill! Potentially placing me in a very hard spot with two of my best friends indefinitely, compromising my ability to make ends meat monetarily, and obviously putting a damper on my typically high spirits. But some lessons come harder than others, and some senses are hard to find, and in the worst times for you, and in the times where you put on a less than admirable display of yourself, you can learn a great number of things. I've learned through all of this what I believe it means to be an unconditional friend, I've learned that there is something to be said for someone who is good for the sake of being good. I'm a very forgiving person, the Merrill family has taught me how to take things with a light spirit, and that everyone deserves seconds, thirds, fourths, etc chances, even when that often comes at the expense of your own feelings, and putting down your guard to let yourself be a punching bag at times. Maybe I'm flawed, but if I have to be a doormat for people to feel better, if I need to be one that is taken advantage of, then I'm willing, everyone needs a place to wipe their feet after all. I realize that for the most part there should be a point where you don't take the punches from people, where you throw some back, but I always believe that if someone feels like they need to take out whatever it is they're dealing with on you, then they're going through something that you probably do not understand fully, whether it be not understanding how it affects them, or the situation itself. It's much like my philosophy on giving homeless people money; if somebody asks you for your money, they obviously feel like they need it more than you do, and even if 99 out of 100 people use that money to buy something you disapprove of, you've helped at least one person, and you've helped others in the way they feel best suits them, and for being generous just for the sake of being generous, you've elevated yourself into a position where most people wish they could aspire to, but are too bitter, angry, or afraid to do so.
Anyways, that's my poorly written views on... Well whatever that was about. Happy reading all!
Steven out!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
The first, hopefully, but potentially the last!
Alright, so I have a friend I've been talking to lately who has a blog, and she writes on it seemingly daily, or close to. I don't know if I will be all that disciplined, because lets face it, I'm just not the disciplined sort of guy, but people are rarely satisfied with the amount I talk to them individually, and are constantly complaining because I don't have the time to catch them up about the current happenings of my life! So this is it, this is my ATTEMPT at finding a way to make my friends and loved ones more easily involved and informed of my life!
The changes! Oh the changes that have happened to me lately! Well, obviously they've been pretty big, and they're taking a long time to get over. When I refer to they, I guess I'm also primarily referring to my break up with my fiance. We broke up after 4 solid years of dating, living together, and virtually being married. As much as it hurts, it's also a time I wouldn't trade for anything, I learned a lot about relationships, my part and deficiencies in them, and what I want from a partner. I'll say this, I will not bad mouth my ex, she is an amazing person, with one of the best spirits I've ever seen, she is very caring and took more abuse than deserved from me. So, if there's someone to be bad mouthed through it all, it's me, but the reasons aren't going on here!
What else though? Lately there hasn't been much change, but there is bound to be some big ones coming up, as I am going to need to find a new place to live when my lease expires. My dogs will be so sad to lose their nice comfy deck that they love to sleep on, when the weather is nice, they hate me when I put them on there and it's cold obviously.
Not a whole lot on the changes front apparently, but that's the life we live for the most part, people try to preserve their sedentary lifestyles as much as possible. Anyways, this was my introductory post to let people know that hopefully there will be more posts in the future. Night all!
Steven out!
The changes! Oh the changes that have happened to me lately! Well, obviously they've been pretty big, and they're taking a long time to get over. When I refer to they, I guess I'm also primarily referring to my break up with my fiance. We broke up after 4 solid years of dating, living together, and virtually being married. As much as it hurts, it's also a time I wouldn't trade for anything, I learned a lot about relationships, my part and deficiencies in them, and what I want from a partner. I'll say this, I will not bad mouth my ex, she is an amazing person, with one of the best spirits I've ever seen, she is very caring and took more abuse than deserved from me. So, if there's someone to be bad mouthed through it all, it's me, but the reasons aren't going on here!
What else though? Lately there hasn't been much change, but there is bound to be some big ones coming up, as I am going to need to find a new place to live when my lease expires. My dogs will be so sad to lose their nice comfy deck that they love to sleep on, when the weather is nice, they hate me when I put them on there and it's cold obviously.
Not a whole lot on the changes front apparently, but that's the life we live for the most part, people try to preserve their sedentary lifestyles as much as possible. Anyways, this was my introductory post to let people know that hopefully there will be more posts in the future. Night all!
Steven out!
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